I write this as I’m pumping, son crying in the swing, and he’s 8 weeks old.
(Not looking for feedback or advice. Not in the mental state to accept it.)
The choice is between pumping or comforting your baby
The choice is between pumping or feeding your baby in your arms or laying them in an infant lounger propped up
The choice is between the sleep you need because you were up with him three times that night or get up early to pump before he wakes up again
The choice is between soothing your baby waking up from a nap early or pumping
If you’ve never pumped or breastfed you don’t know the physical pain you’re in needing to express your milk in one way or another
This choice occurs almost four times a day.
This is the choice I have to make daily. Most days I can time the pump sessions to right after he goes down for a nap – but on the days he’s fussy or the days he wants to nap on me, I have to choose to wake him up and put him down somewhere which leads to him wailing crying because I woke him up early… all because I have to physically pump. And I’ve interrupted valuable sleep for him. And raised my stress level and I’m irritated with myself and this schedule.
Yes, I have wearables which have been amazing to help me during the day be able to multitask but it does not allow me to hold my child (however I’ve done it a couple of times awkwardly and almost lost all the milk), wake up later, can’t help you soothe your child.
So when do you know to stop pumping?
This is probably the hardest dilemma for me right now and I just had to write it out. Not looking for feedback or advice. Not in the mental state to accept it. Especially if you’ve not been in this situation.
Signed a very tired mom who’s trying to give my son breast milk as long as I physically and mentally can.
It’s definitely a struggle. I felt guilty for not trying long enough. But my son had to eat….
I’m there with you! He’s had formula during overnights and tolerates it… so I’m not opposed. But it’s such a hard dilemma – how does one know when to stop?! Guess that’s my new mother’s instinct that will tell me.